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12 Jul 14 at 4 pm
tags: tha feels  personal 

I woke up pretty upset today, until I realized that I shouldn’t be fixating on what I don’t have anymore. I have so much right now right in front of me.

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02 Jul 14 at 6 am
tags: personal 

I have a new boyfriend. He’s a 42 year old metal musician. Isn’t life strangely wonderful?

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15 May 14 at 1 pm
tags: personal 

Learning to let things go has been one of the biggest struggles in my life, but being happy is more important than proving I’m right. I keep having to remind myself of that.

I only talk to myself when I’m alone and when I do I only say self-deprecating things like, “you’re stupid,” or “you’re an idiot,” or “why did you do that?”

I like myself more than most I think, but I only love myself when I do everything right. I only have a good day when everything has gone perfectly. On a clear seventy degree day with no wind and mild sun, when I’ve had oats and strawberries for breakfast with three cups of coffee and my hair is laying perfectly and my bra strap never falls down over my shoulder and someone I care about hugs me so hard it hurts and I don’t think about the fact that my mother never loved me, am I having a good day.

Some say depression is the price of truly being good at intellectual pursuits. I say depression is the price of truly having standards.

Although perfection is relative, we are all the same person, really. All made of bone and sinew and pores and shit with longing and feelings no one will ever understand and no way of satisfactory way of conveying them. All that matters is that we try. Doesn’t it?

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20 Mar 14 at 12 pm

I told myself I was going to stop shaving my head and let my hair grow out, but I’m already so bored of it. Might being doing this again. Oh well. At least I lasted like 8 or 9 months.

tags: me  selfie  shaved head  personal 
I told myself I was going to stop shaving my head and let my hair grow out, but I’m already so bored of it. Might being doing this again. Oh well. At least I lasted like 8 or 9 months.
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24 Feb 14 at 8 pm

Sometimes you and a dog just have to bother your drunk friends.

Sometimes you and a dog just have to bother your drunk friends.
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22 Jan 14 at 9 am

Cover art for the zine I’m working on.

Cover art for the zine I’m working on.
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09 Jan 14 at 2 pm

Me in 2007.

Me in 2007.
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05 Jan 14 at 9 am
tags: personal 


on the internet i say i don’t hate people
you says you hate people a lot more than i do

i am alone at a restaurant
everyone is talking
i feel detached and serious
because that is how i feel when i am around people
i hear you say that you hate people
and i do too but it is because i need them to survive
and i have no control

then you are standing on the path talking
i move very close to you
i hug you a little while you are telling me something
you pat my head and say, ‘i know’ and throw something in the trash

i look you in the eyes
i say i always look people in the eyes now
you ask why
i say so people can see the weakness is my eyes

the next night at four in the morning
i remember when you threw something in the trash and i relate a little

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23 Dec 13 at 11 am

My new Nick Blinko tattoo by Gary Stevens.

My new Nick Blinko tattoo by Gary Stevens.
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01 Dec 13 at 5 pm

It’s cold today.

tags: me  personal  gpoy 
It’s cold today.
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02 Nov 13 at 5 am

Ugh. Me at work.

tags: me  personal 
Ugh. Me at work.
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01 Nov 13 at 4 am
tags: me  personal 
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25 Oct 13 at 5 am

Me last year.

tags: me  personal  GPOY 
Me last year.

The moment when you forgot that you were watching porn and look up at your screen.